Was in a state of complete confusion n despair

I was going abt my usual routine( since probation started for me), sittin in my room in front of e com doing my stuff online. When a realization hit me. Jus lyk tt. It jus 'VOOM' n came down on me.
I realized i'm in a relationship where tinks arent workin out e way i wan it 2b, n its gettin 2 me. It was sudden, but had quite an impact. I cldnt take it, felt suffocated. Did smth v impulsive.

I decided to give up on the relationship.

U c, its not the guy i'm with isnt good enuf. I mean, if he wasnt, den we wldnt have got together in e 1st place. But i guess i'm a person w/ expectations of my own. So when he didnt measure up, i was utterly disappointed. Felt dejected, possibly due sum issues from my past relationship as well, i decided 2 jus end it.
Felt there was no point dragging on n wasting time on tis relationship.

One hasty move n i broke his heart.

I'm rlly sorry tt i initiated a break-up jus lyk tt. I rlly shld have told him, u noe sit him down n jus tok tinks out b4 i make e ultimate decision. Well, i NEVER learn. I'm so strong-headed n self-righteous and rash and irrational, u name it. But i'm getting better. *smiles*

But i'm feeling hopeful all over again. Thanks my dear boi. I'm entrusting my heart to u once again.
I noe u wont let me down ya?

Well, speakin of relationships, i have got smth 2 say. Evry1 has thier history; past relationships n all. N i guess one never rlly 4gets them. They jus GET OVER thier previous loves n move on. But i reckon there muz be a certain somebody u'll rmb, lyk he/she is imprinted in ur memory 4 life. But tt doesnt necessarily means u havent got over them n stil bear hopes n feelings 4 them but its tt the special sum1 has given u precious n pleasant memories u wld kip w/ u 4 the rest of ur life.
Either tt, or tt person is a fuck-head hu cheated on u one too many times n broke ur hart in2 a million pieces n might nvr evr mend.
haa.
Fortunately 4 me, its not tt case.

But wadeva it is, e past is over. So pp, get over him/her already! Its time to get ur butt moving on. Since tt person's done w/ u, tt oni goes 2 show tt ur 'THE ONE' is stil lurkin sumwhere out there waiting 4 u!
I've found mine. *grins

So, best of luck guys ~