Oh its been a while since i last updated !

What's new ?

I'm officially free ! Have completed my 18 grueling months of torment (LOL) under the probation order. I'm as free as the bird in the sky to do anything, yes everything ! Like run on the streets naked walking the dog , or don Mr Macdonald's hot RED curly hair .
Haha, i was forbidded to have colored hair for the past 1 year and 6 months loh ! So, i'm going to do smth crazy to it, so let ur imagination run wild ;) wad abt light blonde big hair that resembles a lion's mane ? ? ha.

aiya. lazy to write already LOL.

PICTURED PICTURES PICTURES ~

All me and felfel's. Cuz babby upload all to his com didnt send all to me ! qi shi wo ler. nvm all fotos available@ dino & fel's blog =))

Went kbox w/ the gals last sunday along w/ jenny fren whom i duno but can sing v well ! They say its due to the fact that they go evry single week. ..i beg to differ. If evry1 can reach that level regardless of with or without the voice, then there wont people out there lyk, Mr William Hung.

Went baby's place tuesday . Now i'm again diao @ vcd. Now its Zaizai's latest drama with that korean gal. She's prettty n zaizai's the eye-candy. oh s*** havent finish Goong.

My hair looks so dry rebonded ! argh. Getting hair xtensions tmr, hope it'll turn out good. How nice to have long long hair overnight la

its been dunno how many donkey years since i blogged . no idea why i suddenly get this impluse - jus got the urge to write down into words all that i'm thinkin and feelin , b4 i suffer a mental breakdown .

no kidding .

Then again , dun tink anyone will get to see tis . mayb a few lucky ones surfing random blogs might , hu noes ?

All the content in tis blog is dated since sometime back in 2004 , until tis very day , and will continue i reckon . Whenever i get tis xtreme desire to blog lyk 2day , anyway .

ok so wads the latest ?

actually there isnt much tinks interesting abt my (UN-glamourous)life anymore that pp wld lyk to read abt , or that i would want to blog abt - to boast abt my new fling with the cute guy hu hangs at cine all the time or wadeva .

i dont wanna sound so SAD or so DOWN lyk a little girl who's lost her way , i dont wanna appear so weak. even if i rlly am jus tt way . But ,

I'm out of LOVE .

u people shld be wondering , hu dump hu ; hu cheated on hu ; hu lied to hu yada yada .

how shld i put it . . . ? OKAY , skip all those unneccesary details , i dont wan 2 be reminded ! This relationship i have with tis guy( lets call him Mr T) , has been going on since beginning of the 06 .
I took sometime to rlly get myself into tis relationship , lyk get serious n rlly begin to love him wholeheartedly . which i did . And tis relationship oso took quite a while to rlly be stable n all . I considered tis as my 2nd relationship which i rlly put my hart n soul into .
There were happy times , equally unhappy times as well . but we both work our way out . Until one fine day earlier tis wk , i found out tt Mr T to not be the guy i noe anymore , or AT ALL actually . He said some things which rlly taken me aback . Only then did i realized his true self . Not tt his true self is UGLY or wad , but jus not the person tt i've imagined myself to have loved for tis nearly 7 months of tis relationship . Wads more, he lied . Lied to me abt sometink which i can nvr 4give him for .

I dun want to sound so unfair to him , cuz tis is only my one side of the story . I oni can say i'm always , and i am being v blatantly honest abt the tinks i say, or write in tis case .

Wad can i say ? its all been a misjudgement of my own . A wrong decision i made . Feel that the whole 7 months of tis relationship is wasted , n i hate to noe tt . Knowing him was a mistake , being with him and loving him is a BIGGER one .

tis past months i wld have been better off single n having noe more guys n open to alot more other options . LOL . dun ya'tink??

U noe i no longer tink i can believe in relationships , all my past xperiences have taught me so much . AND i'm now so cynical , whenever i see lovey dovey couples going on oni a short time , appear so oh-so-sweet yet so insincere, it jus turns me off .

BIG DEAL , i dun nid a man to live ~ !

hu says true sincere love will be reciprocated ? all bull .

i dun lyk to be feeling so much hatred , so much anger , so much pain . the last thing i wan is to come across as a naive little girl hu tinks guys r pigs . Guys r cute , meant to be anyway . BUT Some jus made themselves out to be so CHEAP . i'll be fine , i jus nid some time to walk out of tis .

And in case u didnt noe , my past relationship's shadow stil haunting me .

but i'll be happy , bcuz i deserve that .

PS. Ru , rmb : make ur stand n be firm . u'll learn how to let go then .

Been quite a good week . Lets see : - SHOPPING

Went AMK central on mon to shop arnd . Dun tink tts an ULU place , no shopping mall bla means no GOOD STUFF OK ? ? They do have a few shops which sell nice n affordable clothes . Me n baobeii both got PRETTY cardigans , spag , tubes . Wad a STEAL ! !

We POSED n got ZHI LIAN at Jubilee mos . .
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After that , we headed to compasspoint . Had fun di siao-ing some sec one girls at the Missha cosmetics store ! ! Another great bargain at one boutique at the third level , do not rmb the name ! I reckoned i was too distracted by the sale going on to notice . Bought 6 NICE tops fpr 3.90 each ! ! ! Fuck . Can u believe tt ? ? I feek like crying , regretted i didnt get more . Tink i mite go back n check out the sale again .

Bitching

We POSED again at Bugis mos .

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Went to mit up w/ Fel n Jenni in the evening . They managed to put off the meeting time til evening . GOOD for u gals ! POUTS . Geegee joined us in a while .

We got Zhilian at Long John Silver b4 i left .
Got bored of taking NICE PRETTY pictures , so i
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I developed tis skin infection last monday , since it doesnt rlly itch or hurt , i fully thot it was jus some slight rashes . Went to the polyclinic n the doc simply dismissed it as SOMETHING VERY MINOR ; jus prescribed me w/ some pills to stop the itching n a tube of anti-infectant cream . The whole consultation time lasted less den 3 mins .

Thats wad i HATE abt polyclinic doctors . They think they're OH-SO-GREAT . They'll casually ask u the same old questions , and when they AGAR AGAR know wads wrong , they make an inaccurate diagnosis ( most of e time ) and literally chased u out of the room . They jus wan to see all the patients FAST ( the fees r subsidised by the govt , thus explains the crowd ) , n get the day done n over with . As if they actually get more pay if they c MORE patients a day . They DO NOT CARE whether u're badly beaten ; has no serious wounds , but suffer MAJOR internal injuries inside .

When it got worse on the 3rd day ( it was so red it looks the color of a fully cooked crab ) , it itches terribly but i cldnt rlly scratch it as it will hurt badly . So the staff brought me back to the doctor ( not the one i last encountered , fortunately ) . The doc was fairly shocked to c the state of my so-called rashes on my waist . Turns out its actually shingles; a skin infection which is contagious to those not immune to chicken pox , n it can b fatal if it goes round my whole waist .

My father being v. concerned of my well-being , at e same time oso v. doubtful n unconfident of the polyclinic doctors' ability ; brought me to a chinese sinsei . I was treated lyk a royal princess ( as compared to the service i got at the polyclinic ) . I was given MC for a whole week to recuperate at home .

The oni tink i dislike abt the sinsei was the chinese medicine he prescribed ; it gave me irritable bowels . I do not fancy the feeling of taking a shit HALF THE TIME i'm asleep .

Anyway , i've an appointment w/ the polyclinic doc tmr . Hope my MC xtends ! ! Though unlikely , seeing how its already all dried up n peeling .

*Sigh

time to go to bed ,
nite <3

I just dun get it can ? ? ?

Call me a fuckhead , a retard , an imbecile , wadeva u wan . I DO NOT freakin care .

Bcuz i refuse to spend another hour jus trying to get the music html code rite ! !

Its so infuriating , i kept trying and the song jus wont play .

FUCK la .

All those codes look lyk greek to me .

Not again . I dun think i've never stop dieting as long as i can remember .

That's the typical life of every teenage girl , i guess .

But i seriously nid to do tis . Now dont you people reading this gimme the " OH . Its jus one of those stupid girls dieting again yada yada " look .
I HAVE STOP DIETING FOR 6 WHOLE MONTHS , thus explaining the accumulated fats arnd my neck .

I've been on a frenzy to lose the weight ever since i admitted to tt living hell ( it being my hostel ). Its been abt 6 months already . And I've put on like FIVE HEFTY KILOS and i tink i'm now at the HEAVIEST in my whole entire 16 yrs and 10 months of life .

Sad isnt it ? ?

And SCREW BEING SKINNY , because wads more sad ?
Its almost impossible to diet at all in Singapore .
Evrywhere you go there is food . They will be beckonin to me" hi irene , come eat me , i'm delicious ! ! ".
And who can you tell me, which sane human being can resist MILO DINOSAUR and CHEESE PRATA ? ? ?

Fuck diets .

We're not talking abt short-cut cheating methods lyk; popping liver-splintering slim 10 pills or liposuction on ur body fats , there're onli TWO ways to get slim.

1. be ANOREXIC lyk Lindsay Lohan
2. exercise and adopt a healthy diet made up of onli FRUITS N' VEGGIES .

HOW CAN I POSSIBLY DO ANY OF ABOVE ? ?

So if you know of any other good methods to slim down , kindly email me or i'm afraid i'll resort to the following:

1. Sniff tt smelly thang whenever i feel lyk eating
2. destroy my tastebuds so i derived no pleasure in eating , not even OREO CHEESECAKE
3. PUKE after i eat up the whole refridgerator of junk food

From wad i noe , many people do 3) . Even celebs lyk Paris hilton etc .

And OH . If you're one of those slimming companies . ENDORSE ME ? ? PLEASE ? ? PLEASE ? ?

email me yea ?

Been quite a loner these days , simply enjoying some time to myself hanging arnd in my own space .

Aiyo ~ What has got into me ? ? **pulls hair hard

HA . I guess I've changed lah . Or rather , i should say my perspective and expectations have changed . Good thing wad ? Rite ? ? ?
At least now my idea of fun can be even just spending some time w/ my family , eating too much and playin mahjong til 6 in the morning . When in the past , i derived NO joy or pleasure from it at all .

Thats if people change for the better .
There're people i noe whom changed SO much in such a short time , its SCARY .

It makes me even wonder why would i even:
1. have any connections / associations w/ such persons
2. once have any humanly feelings for them ! !

People do change lah .
Well , thats life . That's how it works , i guess .

Throbbing headache's killing me . The lack of slp and / or PMS is making me CRANKY .
Argh .
Oh . HOW ? ? Wad abt my hefty hp bill tis month ?
DIE .
Beta hide it well .

Love ,
IRENE

Tired of the dull look of my blog ( I mean , BLACK ? Its so NOT me , NOT my colour ) .
I've changed it to THIS cutesy hello kitty skin . Kawaii or wad ?

LOL. Loving it .

But is it a little TOO cute ?

EH . NOTHING is too cute for me can ? ? ? :))

Btw , my so-called skin infection is healing fast . Got an appointment w/ the doc on thurs . MC supposed to cover until this friday .

Enjoy ! !
<3 IRENE

LOVE ,
IRENE