Was in a state of complete confusion n despair

I was going abt my usual routine( since probation started for me), sittin in my room in front of e com doing my stuff online. When a realization hit me. Jus lyk tt. It jus 'VOOM' n came down on me.
I realized i'm in a relationship where tinks arent workin out e way i wan it 2b, n its gettin 2 me. It was sudden, but had quite an impact. I cldnt take it, felt suffocated. Did smth v impulsive.

I decided to give up on the relationship.

U c, its not the guy i'm with isnt good enuf. I mean, if he wasnt, den we wldnt have got together in e 1st place. But i guess i'm a person w/ expectations of my own. So when he didnt measure up, i was utterly disappointed. Felt dejected, possibly due sum issues from my past relationship as well, i decided 2 jus end it.
Felt there was no point dragging on n wasting time on tis relationship.

One hasty move n i broke his heart.

I'm rlly sorry tt i initiated a break-up jus lyk tt. I rlly shld have told him, u noe sit him down n jus tok tinks out b4 i make e ultimate decision. Well, i NEVER learn. I'm so strong-headed n self-righteous and rash and irrational, u name it. But i'm getting better. *smiles*

But i'm feeling hopeful all over again. Thanks my dear boi. I'm entrusting my heart to u once again.
I noe u wont let me down ya?

Well, speakin of relationships, i have got smth 2 say. Evry1 has thier history; past relationships n all. N i guess one never rlly 4gets them. They jus GET OVER thier previous loves n move on. But i reckon there muz be a certain somebody u'll rmb, lyk he/she is imprinted in ur memory 4 life. But tt doesnt necessarily means u havent got over them n stil bear hopes n feelings 4 them but its tt the special sum1 has given u precious n pleasant memories u wld kip w/ u 4 the rest of ur life.
Either tt, or tt person is a fuck-head hu cheated on u one too many times n broke ur hart in2 a million pieces n might nvr evr mend.
haa.
Fortunately 4 me, its not tt case.

But wadeva it is, e past is over. So pp, get over him/her already! Its time to get ur butt moving on. Since tt person's done w/ u, tt oni goes 2 show tt ur 'THE ONE' is stil lurkin sumwhere out there waiting 4 u!
I've found mine. *grins

So, best of luck guys ~

and, laughing out loud.

To the bitchy woman hu tinks she is oh-i'm-so-smart-n-sexy-worship-me:
Get over urself. Get over the past already. If u tink ur latest entry's affectin me, den i'm tellin u its not workin. N if u tink ur entry's got evry1 believiing it, den u r DEAD wrong.
Instead, i'm amused at how hard u're trying. How hard u're trying to twist e facts upside down n even makin up pathetic stories n try 2 appear as the winning party.
But i guess i shld give u sum credit 4 e effort huh?

Well, u guys r scratching ur head i'll bet. N so 4 e benefit of e general concerned public hu r jus dying 2 get the story( or mayb jus for gossip). Here's wad rlly happened, in short:

-I was aware of such a person( n such blog) somehow, thnx 2 a person in which its identity i would keep private.

-I found out a certain post on the person's blog. The person pushin all e blame 2 e inocent ex-bf, saying how he's at fault n how its only fully acceptable n understandable tt she cheated on her him THRICE, bcus 'he's not exactly a Brad Pitt'. Wad a superficial dweeb. In which the post she continues 2 put the other party down, directed brutal insults at e victim thus trying to mislead the readers to tink she's e innocent one. When e truth is totally e opposite. Wad bogus.

-Of cuz my being totally a chivalrous civillian, i had to do sumtink. Haa. So i conveniently left sum tags on e tagboard. Ok, i dun deny those tags arent v polite but wad e hell, its nth more den wad she deserves.

-Aft which she found out n took gr8 offense in them. Then started posting nasty comments not jus at her blog but on my tagboard as well.( I dunno how 2 she got 2 my blog, wad a witch, it scares me jus 2 tink). Not oni tt, her put-downs got worse. And being afraid pp will eventually find out the naked truth n all facts 2 e story, she tried to turn her words arnd, twisting e facts topsy-turvy in her posts 2 retort evrytink. Even makin up pathetic stories.

Shame on u. To those hu're curious 2 noe how gr8 she's at spinning tales( for all i noe, she makes a gr8 scriptwriter), u might wan 2 check out her blog at www.superlanie.blogspot.com jus for laughs. Almost evrytink is made-believe, i particularly lyk the part on her imaginary sex life w/ him. She has quite a wild imagination, i muz admit. I'm impressed at how determined she is to hide e truth. *l o l Perhaps, she doesnt wan pp noe tt beneath her angelic facade, she's jus a shallow, fake n money-grabbing whore.

I share the outrage w/ my boi. Tt fucked up ex of his is e worst regret of his life.

But it doesnt bother him in e least. He's immuned 2 all tt. I'm proud of him. *smiles

Cheerios^~
n Be entertained, my readers!